Monday, June 29, 2009

Changing of the guard

The hospital is a crazy place this week.
 
Let me explain: I work on an Army base (an Army Air Field, technically) in an Air Force hospital (which means our leadership and most of the medical staff are Air Force).  The Air Force deployment regime is very different than the Army's: they generally do not deploy as whole units, but rather deploy in small teams and meet on the other side of the world for a 6-month tour.  Like the Army, though, the entire deployed unit (in this case the hospital) switches out at about the same time.  That time is now.
 
There are hundreds of new faces in every department of the hospital.  Those that are leaving (or "redeploying" in military-speak) are teaching their replacements the ins and outs of the hospital and the base.  The bottom line is that we have nearly twice the personnel in the hospital right now, as well as twice the number of occupants in our living quarters.  I feel like I am constantly bumping elbows - in the clinic, in the chow hall, in the bathrooms, and everywhere else.
 
As a result, I have been avoiding both the hospital and my dorm room like the plague for the past few days in an attempt to stay sane and avoid claustrophobia.  (Believe me, there are plenty of better places on base to hang out!)  My frustration level has been relatively high as nurses, techs, and docs learn and practice their new deployed duties.  My patience has also been quite low - six women to a room means lots and lots of waking up in the middle of the night and virtually no good rest!  Noise pollution combined with a few recent late nights "out on the town" have worn me out somewhat.
 
Meanwhile, I am overcome by an intense sadness as many of my friends leave Bagram for new and better things.  Nearly all of the friends I have made here in Afghanistan will be leaving within the next week (which means, actually, that I will be the most senior doc in the hospital .... scary thought!).  I have heard that the people with whom you deploy are your friends forever; given the gamut of emotions we have experienced together - joy, sadness, fear, benevolence, passion, confidence, love, angst and everything in between - I am a wholehearted believer in this mantra.  I have only known these battle buddies for a few months, yet many of them feel like family.  We have memories that will last a lifetime - like salsa dancing (or attempting to salsa dance, in my case) in the MWR clamshell, eating awesome BBQ in the Eagle's Nest at the dust off, watching the Afghanistan countryside from several thousand feet in altitude, good coffee early in the morning and late at night, clinic water fights, and "going shopping" at the medical logistics warehouse.  My life is about to become relatively boring again, and I'm not particularly looking forward to it.  I am, however, looking forward to a long night of decent sleep!

Finkbiner Park with Uncle Chuck

We couldn't resist taking the boys to Matt's favorite park last weekend.  Sorry it took so long to post these pictures!

Matt had a great time at the park especially climbing the stairs and the rope bridge.  Zach tagged along and tried to copy everything his older cousin did.

Uncle Chuck really had a nice time with both boys and even pushed both in the swings at the same time.  It was a great day with perfect weather.  Its starting to get really hot here now (although we can't complain since I hear its 105 in the desert!).

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Thursday, June 25, 2009

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

HI DADDY!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND REALLY MISS YOU.
CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU SOON.
WE'RE COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS UNTIL YOU GET BACK.
LOVE, CHEEKFEAST




Sunday, June 21, 2009

Attack on Bagram

Many of you have probably already heard about the rocket attack which hit Bagram Air Field this morning.  It was a relatively rare attack on my relatively safe base; I think it's the second or third indirect fire attack during my 16-week stay.  Of course, all the attacks have occurred during hours of darkness, which makes the wakeup for 20,000 people at Bagram quite startling and unpleasant.  Last night was no different, as we all paraded out to our duty sections to sign in for accountability.  In any case, this is the first rocket attack during my tenure in which soldiers were killed and critically injured, and thus it marks something of a turning point for my deployment.  It's frightening to know that at any time, we might be under attack from the sky hunkered down in our hardened buildings and bunkers.  Other troops in Afghanistan and Iraq experience rocket attacks weekly, daily, or even multiple times per day; my company commander told me that the maximum number of attacks in one night at his base in Southern Afghanistan was 11.  Bagram has its moments of danger, but luckily they are only fleeting moments.  In general, Bagram continues to be as safe a base as exists for servicemembers deployed to Afghanistan.
 
Read more about the attack on these sites:
 
 

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Frontierland



I have just returned to Bagram after spending 8 days at a small fire base in eastern Afghanistan. The fire base is called Lilley, although the inhabitants also call it Shkin after a soldier who was killed here several years ago. I was attached for the week to a group of Special Forces medics (known as 18 deltas, or just 'deltas') and medical providers. The SF dentist was also there, and he and I were the only two doctors in the bunch. The mission for the week was to provide medical care to the local populations through two village medical outreach programs (VMOPs); the secondary mission was to help provide medical care to the Afghan soldiers and local Afghans at the clinic located at Shkin.

I spent days and days preparing for the mission. It required that I draw a bunch of Army gear, participate in MRAP familiarization training (which I blogged about here), draw medical supplies and pack medic bags for the mission, get a second weapon (since I refused to go outside the wire without an M16 or equivalent ... the 9 mm just isn't good enough) plus ammo, and pack everything up as compactly as possible. It was a long few days, especially since I was working full-time as well.

We departed Bagram via chinook helicopter, and it was a pleasant and beautiful ride to Goode Army Airfield, where we refueled, then on to FB Lilley. Our arrival day was mostly full of unpacking, repacking, and meetings to learn about the next day's VMOP. I shared a room with a female interpreter, Julie, on the second story of the mud-brick building known as "The Alamo". The base had never been occupied by females before, so the guys had to get used to sharing their bathrooms and showers with us. Luckily, they were very accomodating and made us feel totally welcome.

On VMOP day, we moved out in our MRAPs for a 2-hour convoy to the site, and along the way we encountered casualties of a vehicle-borne IED blast. (The attack was on an Afghan security force about 3 minutes ahead of our convoy.) There were 3 casualties, one of which I was involved in treating, monitoring, packaging for transport, and loading onto the medevac chopper. There was an incredible amount of coordination among members of the team to both treat the patient and keep us safe. The non-medical elements formed a 360-degree perimeter with their vehicles to provide security, while the medical elements called in the medevac and popped smoke onto the landing zone. For me, it was the most incredible experience to see the "other" side of a medevac - the point-of-injury side. I have seen hundreds of patients unloaded from medevacs at the hospital, but had never loaded one myself at the point of injury. I learned more from this experience that I ever could have learned sitting around Bagram.

The VMOP was a success. I saw exclusively children, and the majority were fairly well medically. We left around 2 pm after seeing about a hundred patients, and convoyed back to Lilley without incident. I was totally exhausted by the end of the day ... the adrenaline surge of the IED blast combined with carrying around so much equipment was bound to exhaust me.

The remainder of the week was spent with Sumaira (a nurse practitioner) and Doc Abdul, the Afghan-trained physician at the Lilley clinic. Samaira is a Pakistan-trained community health nurse who has worked at the clinic on base for 3 years. Her training consisted of one year of midwifery and one year of community health; however, most of her knowledge has been acquired on the job. She taught me a whole lot about third-world medicine, and I was able to contribute to her education in small ways, too. She and I worked well together, and in fact became friends. She made me some local food while I was there, and I will send her some personal goodies this week.

The clinic days were punctuated by two interesting training opportunities: the range and medic training. I went to the range with the SF folks and shot my 'comfortable' weapons (the M16 rifle and M9 pistol) plus learned to shoot a few others (50cal, grenade launcher, different kinds of 9 mm, and AK47). My favorite was the grenade launcher - what a fun little weapon! I was a little bruised in the armpit afterwards, but it was worth it for this type of training. The medic training was an opportunity to teach the first-line medics about bleeding control, suturing, emergency airways, and the like. It's something that rarely occurs in the states, and thus I jumped at the chance to both learn and teach.

Our flight to Bagram was cancelled the first time around, so - darn! - we spent an extra day at Lilley. We enjoyed "surf and turf" dinner (which is Sundays at Lilley, Fridays at Bagram) and played some Rock Band to pass the time. I even have blisters to show for it!

Life at Lilley was so different than life in Bagram. Although it's an SF compound, the ambiance is far more laid-back and relaxed. Most soldiers run around in civilian clothes, baseball caps, beards, and flip-flops without being weighed down by a weapon of any sort. (I personally did not bring civvies, but I wore crocs as footwear and neglected to put up my hair when it was reasonable to do so.) The typical Army rules and regulations are not at all enforced - in fact, they are not even discussed. It's accepted that iPod ear buds act as ear protection, and that helmet use in the MRAPs is optional. As long as the mission gets done, little else matters.

I returned to Bagram with a sinking feeling in my stomach. I didn't want to come back. There's an appeal to fire base life which is difficult to express - it's a smaller, more intimate base, which is less formal and less bureaucratic. As an example, I got off my twin-engine fixed-wing aircraft at Bagram and went straight to the hospital to check in with my command. I was wearing one of my army combat shirts (like you see in the range pictures), a uniform only authorized during missions. Quite a few people made comments about the uniform I was wearing as I signed in. I thought to myself, "Come on, people! I've been downrange for 8 days and just got off my flight, and you're bothering me ALREADY about my uniform??!" Give me a break.

Bagram is a comfortable, safe place, and I have learned so much from my 3 months on the intensive care unit and on the ward. Given the safety of Bagram, most people can't understand why I would volunteer for this mission, why I would take the risk of not coming back to my husband and my son. But the things I learned at Lilley simply could not have been learned in Bagram. Yes, there was inherent danger in going downrange and outside the wire, but the benefits of seeing patients in local villages, living like a real soldier for once, and initiating the medevac chain first-hand cannot be overstated. There are hundreds of thousands of soldiers, sailors, airmen, and marines deployed to the middle east in harm's way every single day, and they don't cry or whine about the risks inherent in their deployments. They just quietly and valiently do their job defending our freedom on the front lines. It was my pleasure to be one of them for a week, and for this I am truly grateful.

I would do it again in a heartbeat if given the opportunity.

Read more about Shkin:
Wikipedia
Global Security



Sunday, June 7, 2009

Skypefeast!

I got to Skype with Matt today!!


At last, the stars aligned, and I was able to get my dad, Loretta, and Matt over to Loretta and Matt's place for a somewhat choppy Skype session. We resolved to meet around noon their time, 10 PM my time, and though it connected, it was pretty much unusable. We postponed for a couple hours, and at 2 PM their time, midnight my time, it worked considerably better. It is still not very good quality, but even video that updates once every couple of seconds is fine with me. I can also hear them just fine, but apparently my voice isn't getting through, so I resorted to typing what I wanted to say, and just listening the other way around. Not perfect, but it's a start!

I also got a headset for the XBox in the mail from my brother, and we were able to talk via XBox Live, which is really intended to set up gamers with each other to play games. It just so happens that being able to talk to each other was a valuable enough feature that it is included, and my roommate has an XBox 360 he barely uses now that he's beaten the only 2 games he brought with him.